Feeling slightly less raw emotionally today and physically able to move around so making the most of what's left of the weekend. A visit to church has hopefully helped me to forgive me for acting so ridiculously on Friday and saying so many terrible things to my fiance. I'm not a horrible person really, it's just the drink that turns me into an absolute monster. I'm like Jekll and Hyde.
A day with the parents has made me feel better - they always know the right thing to say. Mum says what's done is done and it will never happen again as I have promised not to touch anymore alcohol. EVER. Although I don't know how I will feel about a sober hen do and watching everyone else enjoy themselves with a few glasses of wine. At least I won't have a headache in the morning and will be able to remember the whole thing which is important.
Still having flashbacks of ridiculous dancing and cringing. I am absolutely dreading going to work tomorrow. What a silly thing to do get so out of control ata work do - I haven't even been here that long. They must all thing I'm a loser now. As it was I was struggling to fit in as they are such a tight0-knit team. I'm suffering from severe paranoia now!
I'll keep you posted on if I survive or end up jobless by the end of the day!
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